Ok. update on love life

MUAH! my friend the very delectable Ser Yee, just emailed me saying nice blog, whats a boy suppose to do? abandon the blog lol, so here i am writing once again in this often forgetting piece of whatever.

update on love life .. hmmm it seems to be none.... thing with Eichiiro just dissapated, and i'm not even interested in why, fact is, i lost interest,... i mean, after the initial yay, Im gonna get a boyfriend stage, there just wasnt anything to talk about.. man, honestly, Im gonna look for a malay boyfriend, much more easier to talk to... and one that likes to speak in english for once. anybody interested?

Why do i keep on blogging?

Am I crass? I think I come across as crass. I mean, I read other peoples blogs, and yea i get sleepy sometimes, but most of them are nice.... I mean bloody nice, their lives are nice, their thoughts are nice, their whole blog is "nice". What am i then? Am i crass? I mean, do they censor their own thoughts or mine that is all wrong.. and why oh why dont i post about my feelings and hopes and dreams? why am i blogging anyway, is it that I secretly hope someone is reading this? Or is this just to keep my thoughts alive? why would i want to keep my thoughts alive anyhow, its nothing positive most of the time.

is this some voyeur nature of mine, wait... I am a voyeur but last question is the best. Why do i give other people my blog address when i infact allready realize this blog does not paint a good picture of me?

plus is my writings totally shiit that nobody ever comments on my blog except for the lovely hui min. oh well, I am tempted to force myself to blog everyday but alas I know that will never come true.

OMG!!! I was googled!!!

Ok so I googled myself lol, and guess what i found, this bloody site! and my picture gallery at http://husz.buzznet.com I mean what if my family googled me, all my secrets would be out.. damn thats scary! lol but i have never used anything else besides my name. i also found the old DAYA site.. talk about the scary past... funny,.. even now i still think that is one beautiful site lol, albeit unused lol..

ok back to the story... had 6 days off for hari raya. the first day was spent at TKC. karaoke and celebrating by eating instant malaysian food. damn it was pathetic. the next day we went to Disney Land Park. Had fun but disneysea was much better ;) the day after that Yokohama, talk about BORING!!! 3 days down. shit there is one day which i didnt do anything ... damnit i cant remember.. anyhow on saturday, I went to SMILE again, went there to ask what EICHIIROs number was... but there was a PARTY there... totally forgot it was their 1st year anniversary!... had loads of fun... Eichiiro came later on... stayed there until 5 am the next day lol....