What Happened to Denial?

Pos nie sebenarnya I dah lama nak publish tapi dok pikir gak .. nak ke tak nak..

Beberapa hari yg lalu, I ada terima satu sms dari mak ketika tengah jalan2 dengan jambu kat Tasek Permaisuri.

Husin. Kamu pegi mana? Kamu jangan buat benda yg di kutuk dan dlaknat Allah. Allah maha mengetahui Jangan buat benda yg boleh merosakkan diri dan menyesal nanti. Kalau kamu sayangkan mak dan diri kamu berhenti lah dri melakukan pekara itu

I tak tahu nak buat apa. Biasanya I akan jawab dengan laser ataupun biarkan je.. tapi this time I cakap i mana ada buat benda2 macam tu... main innocent.. Nak jawab macam mana lagi.. pastu dia reply lagi

Kalau macam tu alhamdulilah. Mak takut apa belaku pada kamu. Mak tak boleh terima lagi benda yg negatif

I dah buat keputusan dah.... dah stabil je.. i kuar dari rumah.. infact, I dah start worry dah. my usual carefree attitude is tinged with "my mother wants me home by midnite" FUCK! I am 27 years old. I should have moved out years ago. I need a job fast. and I need to grow up.

oh btw if you didnt understand the message.. I'll try to translate it. Basically my mother gave me an sms while I was at a crusing park with a friend(with benefits). We were looking for a place to fool around. The sms asked where i was and told me not to do things that god hates and do not incur the wrath of god. Something along the lines of "You will rot in hell" if you do those things. Do not do things that would be damaging to yourself. and things that you will regret. God is allknowing. She said that if i love her and myself, I would stop doing things like that.

i replied that no, i wasnt doing anything. she said thank god if its like that. she says that she's worried about me and that she cannot take anymore negative things.



but the thing is... I am seriously flawed. Honestly. I know I am flawed and I dont know how to fix it. I am afraid I cannot control my reaction and things will be far worse. Honestly. I do not know how to love.

Wake n Bake

Yep The Lovely Pink Salvation Army decided to feed us hungry folks on this bright lazy sunday. Out Benefactors Derrick & Collin, Warren and Steve. The hungry hordes Collins, myself, Marilyn & Emily, Aaron & Bill.

The Menu, Everything delicious. Bread by steve. Rolls buns and wholemeal. I will admit my ignorance in the specific names. Bacon, cheese, onion and zuchinni Quieche. Mine of course would be vegetarian. Mini Muffins, Baked Beans from a can and Scrambled Eggs. Of course there was loads and loads of seared Bacon which these kafir people consumed like mad.

Absolutely Fabulous was our entertainment. As I blog, the party is still going on.

hopefully there will be pics, if Marilyn is kind enough to email me.

Technorati Tags: Wake and Bake, Breakfast, Brunch, Lunch, Food, Lazy Sunday

Reality TV here I come!

yea!! I got through! tho all i did was fill out a form and sent it to them lol

what did i get thru? well The Travel and Living 5 Takes TJ!! lol I just have to make a video log and a sample blog.. I think I'll go original and send one of my old posts! lol ....

Come on! help me! gimme me ideas on what to do with the Vlog! I am thinking of making one at some dirty under the bridge in KL! lol or amongst the the drag queens in red light district!

Technorati Tags: Reality TV, Travel, Journal, Travel and Living, Asia

Join the war against the Vampires!

Yes .. thanks to Totoyy, I have now joined the the ranks of flesheaters, those powerful shapeshifting Werewolves in the everlasting WAR against those bloodsucking vampires. It's a cool online game, just click on this link to take a look. The game is called MonstersGame and even though it's still in Beta, this should be fun. There are two choices for you. I am a werewolf, but my friend Totoy is a vampire. This will be the ultimate choice. Clicking on your choice below would determine if you live or die.

Ultimately if you just want to look around, just let me bite you here and it will give me gold. You dont need to sign up

Come closer to my embrace! lol yep .. there will be a link on my sidebar too!

Technorati Tags: Online Games, MonstersGame, MMORPG, Vampire, Lycan, Werewolves, Multiplayer, Fantasy, RPG

Party Crashing 101

Posted by: husz

Yup we crashed the Jusco Annual Dinner.. . Again! This time I brought and accomplice along, Ridzuan. HAHAHAHAHA. And This time it was Midvalley, Wangsa Maju and Taman Maluri.

Honestly, I prefered the location for Klang's the best! it was sooo grand.. this one looked like an airport hangar.. plus those poor people cant even see properly. AND!! The orange cordial went OOS like at 10pm!!! who ever heard of such stupidity.

But I liked it. The boys were cute, the entertainment was good. Midvalley staff performance was impressive. They won. And Although their Management performance also won, it was like shit. lol Tebrau City Management Team would've trounced them thoroughly.

Posted by: husz

That's Idayu, I love her.. NO DOLT!! NOT THAT WAY! lol she and I went through some rough patches back then... Managed to snap snap wit her.

But back about last night... I had LOADS of fun.. I danced with loads of cute guys, grabbed alot of asses and molested even more boys. There was this one Blue Wave from Wangsa Maju who I dance with.. I cropped a feel and he had a HARD ON!! lol best nye

anyway stayed late and went home...

oh on the way there.. I almost died.. had to do a Tokyo Drift Thingy. Really. All becuase my tyres are shit and my brakes are almost dead.

Technorati Tags: Jusco, AEON, Annual Dinner, Idayu, Midvalley, Party Crashing, molest, Hard On, PWTC

Beware of GOOGLE!!!

I was bumbling about and decided to try Digg. One interesting Digg that I found was about this writer, Kerry Madden who got in trouble with her mother because she wrote an article in the newspaper entitled "9 Tips for Surviving the Holidays at Your Republican Parents' Home". Well long story short, one day her mother decided to try googling her daughter. Voila! She found the link to that particular essay. They are still not talking not talking to each other. you can read about it here

Same thing happened to me but even worse... with my eldest sister. Well almost the same thing. My sister found my blog through my own stupidity but any other member of my family can EASILY find me through Google. Gosh, its scary.

WHY OH WHY DO I INSIST on using my REAL NAME??? No other gay malay blogger does! do they?

Technorati tags: Google, Folly, Gay, Politics, Kerry Madden

Tsunami ??

Yes I watched the news and apparently there is another Tsunami that has hit Indonesia.. But i tried to look around for news sites and not many stories of it. I dont even know where the epicenter is.. only that its in Java this time and 300++ killed so far.

[update] ok you can check out the news on thestar.com.my, u have to trust an asian newspaper to carry more information. Apparently the epicenter is actually only 100km from Jakarta!

those poor people..

on a different note, I went for an interview today, at Collins company, doing Recruitment.. I hope I get it.. Wish me Luck. I also finished reading my little sister's book titled "Prep" by Curtis Sittenfeld. Didnt like it much but I'll post a review for it.. hopefully.


Technorati Tags: Tsunami, Job Search, Prep, Curtis Sittenfeld, Reading, Recruitment

Hampeh tak jadi

well plan nak gi Blue Boy tak menjadi.. apa cerita nya, si Leman tu kerja Full jadi helper kat JUSCO J-One Pearl Point. Dah dua hari buka..

Apa lagi aku pon terliur lak nak gi.. cari jap kat internet directions, last last kena tanya abg Hadi. Dekat je ngan rumah i... so kat sana wooot! lokasi dia BEST giler! memang boleh buat perniagaan.. Sebab I teriya sangat nak gi tengok tu pon sebab Project Manager tu, En Ghazali tu adalah Manager I yg paling best pernah I kerja ngan.. memang sayang sangat kat dia.. tapi sayang biasa2 je.. tak lebih..

So aku pon angkut kaki gi sana.. Leman ada.. boyfren dia pon ada .. Labu pon ada, Kak Saz pon ada, En Hisham pon ada, Bob bbk pon ada, hazami bbk pon ada, saiful bbk pon ada, Hardi Mv pon ada, mak ai banyak betoi member member lama aku ada.. sambutan dari customer pon memang nampak menggalakkan. sempat lagi cuba ngorat si jambu nie.. nama dia Azlan.. lol comel sangat.. macam cepet.. alkisahnya, leman penat so kiteorang gi makan kat Warung Rindu Pantai Dalam.. next time i nak cuba nasi lemak dia..

after that, i call si shah angkut dia and member dia and gi tengok Bola at Sri Hartamas...mak ai banyaknya orang.. tu sejam sebelum game time tu.. cari parking pon susah.. Anyway best juga lepak ngan shah nie... esok kiteorang gi Bukit Bintang..

to end the post... HURRAY!!! GERMANY MENANG!! 3-1!! tapi goal portugal tu memang canteq.

now Mr Lahm nie walaupon dalam gambor nie tak berapa comel loteh tapi dalam sebenarnya he is actually very the comel.. cute.. takde la hensem tapi memang comel.. I makin tengok makin minat.. mula mula dulu tak suka sangat.. orangnya kecil je... tapi main punya la semangat dia defender, posisi full back [ok ada mamat tu x puas hati sebab aku memang tak reti sangat bola nie. So I nak cakap bahawa si lahm nie suka ikut kanan, xpon kiri. Dia support punya support sampai banyak kali tiba2 dia dah ada kat depan in scoring position. So i yg bongok nie pon anggap tu winger la! anyway tenQ sebab kalau x macam mana la i nak jadi gay bottom yg pandai bola]... a left winger.. dia dari belakang tu boleh lari dengan bola sampai ke depan sana.. tak penat penat langsung.. wa memang respect sama dia

Satu lagi jambu yang i minat adalah Mr Oliver Neuville nie. Dia biasanya substitute je,.. bukan goalscorer walaupun posisi dia forward. Tapi i suka cara dia main.. best.. and dia pon comel giler.. =) Mr Neuville, kalau ko singgah malaysia dan secara kebetulannya faham bahasa melayu and juga terserempak ngan post nie... call me 019 6434 575 ok?

Technorati Tags: World Cup, Lahm, Neuville, Germany, Jambu, Jusco, Pearl Point, J-One, Bola, Gay

Blue Boy

Yep I feel like cheap clubbing at Blue Boy later tonite...

itupun kalau my fren nak pergi ..

- Bloggers Idol Official Weblog - 2006 contest is back! -

This is the second year Blogger Idol will be on. 15 Malaysian bloggers will compete for the glory of being crowned the 2006 Blogger Idol. The contestants are

• Affy Ronan


• Archmal


• Budak Catwalk


• Dari Bilik Ini


• Duyung Island Boy


• Ian Carl Jericho


• Isis Natasha


• Izzu


• MPijan


• Nadhirah


• Red Mummy


• Samasam


• UjangMD


• -Y- ... Darklighter


• Zek

I will reuse this post later on. depending on whether I actually have the time or not, I hope to add my own observations through the week right under or next to their link. So, Don't forget to visit the Blogger Idol 2006 and also the contestants.. and If you have a blog or site, then ADVERTISE!!! =) Pass the word around. Link it. Blog it. Blogroll it. Myspace it. Fridae it. Do anything and everything you can!

[Keusta.net] The cube / Graffiti [Peinture Fresh]

I was just hanging out on
Flickam, when I went into this grafikboy's live room. He was shirtless and looked hunky. There was Chaz too, I had read a bit of his profile before that. Anyway, we got to chatting.. and it was nice. real nice, then he had to leave. He said he had some wallpainting to do.. VOILA! graffiti..

Aint these grand? I love em.. totally crazy

Italy through to the Finals!!!

WOW!! Its crazy.. Germany finally defeated =) and it was all last minute! The second one literally. Grosso scored at the 119' minute. That is only one minute before the end of the second half of the extra time!! lol and the second goal by Del Piero was in the minute 121' which is the additional time AFTER the extra time. The referee whistled the end of the match RIGHT after that goal!

lol its crazy..

I tell you ... there are a lot of people wanting to commit suicide this World Cup!! I dont think anybody in the whole world would have forecasted the Final 2 teams. I bet alot of people have a lot of money to pay to the bookies. They will surely be celebrating though..

Congregation at Marilyn's?

well I guess its high time for a daily personal post about my life. Not to mention a gay post at that.

Well today I went to Midvalley again. Motive? To meet up with Idayu. Well after an hours wait and searching. Some misunderstand about her not bringing her handphone and my misfortune of no credit, me managed to meet. I "POWWED" her a KFC meal, talked about our mutual funds and finally I called up Shah. We were to meet later.

But before that I pergi kacau Leman's boyfriend, a very cute and lovable Zarif. Found out Leman was coming to Midvalley to practice dance for their Annual Dinner. Even though technically he isnt a Midvalley staff any longer lol.

Anyway... I did pick up Shah but headed back to Midvalley. I had an appointment with some JUSCO frens... to talk about Public Mutual.. While doing this,.. Marilyn called.. apparently Collins told her I was here.. and she asked me if we wanted to teman her go on a short tour at California Fitness. =) I really want to join .. it looks soooo cool but its not really practical for me.. I dont live near there.. I dont work near there and I have no money lol.. anyhow.. It was really cool.. and loads of people too.. with a swimming pool!

after my Business appointment, We went off to Pantai Panorama, me to fix her Router problem.. =) Did exactly that, but I swear, they guys before did most of the work.. It just needed the magickal fairy touch of Hussin yusof. lol.. anyway... then I asked Leman and Zarif to come over too.. so there we were.. didnt do particularly much but I had a great time.. surrounded by great people.

Of course I wanted to gauge how serious Zarif was about Leman. This only being the second time I met him. Happy to announce that they seem to care alot about each other .. *sigh* jealous of them too adalah.... =( wish i had something like that..

oh well.. tapi really happy for Leman that he found somebody who appreciates him for the great guy he is...

Celcom Follow up Email and my reply

thank you very much for the reply.
Currently my mother really does not like Celcom anymore. She is currently contemplating using postpaid due to prepaid was used up too fast. But now that she knows why it is finished fast. However, she is still contemplating postpaid. Only now she will be using Maxis.

However, I am still currently a celcom prepaid user. And I am also contemplating migrating to postpaid in the foreseeable future. Your minute plan was very attractive to me but like my mother. I was sorely dissapointed in the way your customer service handled the problem.

One word of advice, please enable users to terminate any subscription easily. Heck with Digi it was no problem at all for my brother. And please allow multi-tiered helpdesk where you will always have somebody who has more experience, more authority and more sense to solve any problems the lower levels cant handle. I really do not believe that your managers had meetings at 7pm.

Anyhow, Thank you very much ms Aishah and I would be grateful to be informed of the outcome in the investigation. And please... my mother has already complaint that the ringing tone company is still draining her prepaid credits. you would do well to put a stop to it immediately.

for your information, I have posted the letter I sent to you immediately on my blog. its at cached google link

as you can surmise. My blog is searchable on Google. Infact, the query Celcom Complaint came up on page 3

cached yahoo link

and on yahoo, its the third item of the first page.

I hope you will take this VERY seriously as my blog does have quite good ranking on most search engines. And it would only take a little bit more effort to get it even more prominent. All it would take is to convince my fellow bloggers to link to that post in the own blogs. Of course with blogs that get hundreds of hits each day, it would even more prominent. My blog doesnt have that many readers at the moment and already you can search for it.

Imagine what would happen if my page could appear similarly on a singe "Celcom" query. this is very real Ms Aishah. I suggest you do everything you can to solve my mothers dilemma.

Thank you again

Yours Truly
Hussin Yusof
On 7/4/06, careline@celcom.com.my wrote:
Dear SirThank you for your e-mail.On behalf of Celcom, we would like to apologise for the situationthat you have experienced.For your kind information, we have initiated an investigation basedon your concern. The outcome of it shall be made known accordinglythereupon. Every complaint, comment or suggestion presents us anopportunity to improve our services from time to time.Lastly, we endeavour to improve the quality of our service and arecommitted to focus on ways and means to fortify it for the benefit ofCelcom customers mainly and your goodself especially.It was a pleasure serving you and we would like to take thisopportunity to thank you for your continued support and contributionto Celcom.Best regardsAishah HishamuddinContact ManagementCustomer ServiceOn Mon, 26 Jun 2006 16:56:22 +0800 you wrote:>for your information and action>>----------