Gigihnyer AKU!!!

YESS! I am very the gigih(industrious).. hmmm lets see.. how was the weekend? half and half.. Friday, i picked up collins from Sentral, then went over to pick uup 3 boys from *** Damansara.. I can never remember the exact name for that place..its near IKEA.. if you go under the thingy instead of to the left..

anyway.. we went to La Queen that night oh but first we ate at Kedai Kak Ara, near Blue Boy. Hmm after that I got a call from Nik from sarawak who i got in contact with thru G4M. He said he just checked in Hotel Imperial next to KFC BB. so I went to to bring him over to La Queen.. sheet.. we waited like 45minutes but no show.. he did call me la.. so it wasnt like that lame of him.

I can understand.. he hasnt met me before, and there I was bringing along 3 other person huhuhu I would have been shy too .. . wait huhuuh I wouldnt .. anyway we left anyhow... after he didnt answer the calls or sms.. what to do.. which in fact was kinda kewl too coz by the time we arrived at La Queen, it wasnt too early.. In fact when we got in, it was kinda empty.. I even got that sinking feeling in the pit of the stomach that sez, "Where the fuck is the party" and "Loser!" at the same time.. hohoho but apparently, after some sign or cue that I have no idea about, may be there is a standardized time when its ok to start coming in?

Coz the flow didnt stop after the place was packed hohoho so many cute boyz.. well lets just cut it short by saying I had loads of fun... even some people I know =) basically had fun.. oh did i tell u, tonite was to bring their friend Mizie out coz he aint never been gay clubbin before .. and sheeet he never been to the Queens Park either.. so thats where we went afterwards.. suffice to say that I stayed there quite late as there were quite a few people I knew and quite a few I got to know hohohoho..

came home around 5 or something.. woke up showered, at around 10 or 11, got in the car with my mom and bro.. and drove to KUANTAN! hohohoho! yess... I didnt even get that much sleep. Which was why I drove until after Temerloh... and then my mom drove.

the way back to kl i drove all the way.. but in KUANTAN, it was boring! yep.. I dont think i ever want to travel with my mother again. I mean if budget is tight, then stay at budget places but I guess when u get older, nagging is like i dunno enjoyable. Plus she didn't let me use the car at night also. said I didnt know the roads.. like hello.. i went to kuantan on my own, found my sister's campus on my own and bloody drove everywhere there on my own. Plus i drove in fucking singapore alonE! for friggin's sake.. I think I could handle a 2km drive to Teluk chempedak from Annexe RestHouse (RM80/ROOMx2).

I bet you she thought I was gonna get some man pussy. Which I was planning on hhuhuu sorry Din(G4M) couldnt make it.. but me being stubborn as i normally am. Decided to fucking walk on my god given two fuckin legs to bloody Teluk Chempedak 2 fuckin kilometers away. Ok, I didnt actually know it was 2 km away until after I have started my journey. everything was fine.. until I arrived there.. then it rained.. and it didnt stop.... huhuhuhu hmmm but between boredom and wet.. i will usually choose wet.. so i walked around still hmmm Teluk Chempedak would be an AMAZING place for camping.. there is this hidden beach reachable thru the raised pathways and it looks heaven (ok it was dark) plus i betcha I could skinny dip as early as 10pm there .. hohohoho

i did meet some people.. kids actually but since I was smelling rather funky, I didnt want to test the graciousness.. even though one was fuckin cute.. huhu.. trust me to find a cute kid in the dark while its raining. so the story ends with me walking back which is always a chore since there is nothing to look forward to. and now my legs are sore and my left feet hurts..

hmmmm silly me.

Waris Jari Hantu

So last Night I went to see a movie Premier at UiTM, the Faculty of Artistic and Creative Technology. They were showing the latest Malay Movie, one by Suhaimie Baba.. I enjoyed it very much even though I wasnt much of a fan of Malay Movies but apart from a few stereotypes and shortfalls, it was surprisingly good.

so basically in this movie we get to see Rusdi Ramli as a transvestite, or pondan or mat kepit ( i have never actually heard anybody use this).

So my friend Fifi has blogged about it sufficiently =). Go and give him a visit.

on a side note. I went to the Taseq later on and hanged out with Jaer, his friend Hairul or Faizal and Sammy. Huhuhu in the end we went crusin' to DBKL to take a look at the money boys and then to Queens Park up until 3:30am.. huhuhu.. there, I met this really cute guy named Rizal and his friend Razif huhuhuhu.. Wish they would be there at La Queen this Friday

Midnight Crawl

cannot see anything in the picture kan? becoz semalam i gi tasek permaisuri.. but hey! before u kata i ni gigih.. org baru lepas buat kerja utk opis tahu! so excused la..

Habis kerja jam 11pm gitu.. OSK punye pasal la.. and then terusssssssssssss gi kl, survey 4 mamaks utk one event kiteorang nak propose to client.. mamak yg besar tau! yg tayang game bola! so i ada la phone interview member2 str8 and separa tue.. dapat la list including la kat gombak! org mana tahu nak gi gombak.. anyway.. i gi times sq, pastu danau kota food court, and then baru bandar permaisuri bistro besar gedabak tue..

so alang2 dah ada kat situ. i lepak la kat Tasek lol.. berkenalan ngan anak ikan ... tapi x on becoz x click kan?

anyway a short while after ada dua jantan atas motor tu tegur i.. lol si Wan and fren.. hensem gaks syam tu..

last last .. kitorang gi minum and bank to tasek coz wan ada abg tgh tunggu.. diaorang lepak kat gazebo tu macam org xde rumah.. siap ada yg tido lagi..

nak dipendekkan cerita .. since i got kamera.. apa lago.. snap snap pose pose la tgh tgh tasek tgh tgh malam tgh tgh gelap gulita! lol ni hah tengok gambor yg telah di adjust di bawah.. kalau x.. haram jadah x nampak apa pon..

oh ya btw .. ada ke patut my fwen si marilyn tu suruh org update my political blog? masa utk lap bontot pon takde hahaha j/k tahu.. lol ... okla wa coba baca surat khabor.. i know ramai org x puas hati pasal banjir nie.. siot punye kerajaan.. itula org johor.. vote lagi BN 100%.

What Happened to Denial?

Pos nie sebenarnya I dah lama nak publish tapi dok pikir gak .. nak ke tak nak..

Beberapa hari yg lalu, I ada terima satu sms dari mak ketika tengah jalan2 dengan jambu kat Tasek Permaisuri.

Husin. Kamu pegi mana? Kamu jangan buat benda yg di kutuk dan dlaknat Allah. Allah maha mengetahui Jangan buat benda yg boleh merosakkan diri dan menyesal nanti. Kalau kamu sayangkan mak dan diri kamu berhenti lah dri melakukan pekara itu

I tak tahu nak buat apa. Biasanya I akan jawab dengan laser ataupun biarkan je.. tapi this time I cakap i mana ada buat benda2 macam tu... main innocent.. Nak jawab macam mana lagi.. pastu dia reply lagi

Kalau macam tu alhamdulilah. Mak takut apa belaku pada kamu. Mak tak boleh terima lagi benda yg negatif

I dah buat keputusan dah.... dah stabil je.. i kuar dari rumah.. infact, I dah start worry dah. my usual carefree attitude is tinged with "my mother wants me home by midnite" FUCK! I am 27 years old. I should have moved out years ago. I need a job fast. and I need to grow up.

oh btw if you didnt understand the message.. I'll try to translate it. Basically my mother gave me an sms while I was at a crusing park with a friend(with benefits). We were looking for a place to fool around. The sms asked where i was and told me not to do things that god hates and do not incur the wrath of god. Something along the lines of "You will rot in hell" if you do those things. Do not do things that would be damaging to yourself. and things that you will regret. God is allknowing. She said that if i love her and myself, I would stop doing things like that.

i replied that no, i wasnt doing anything. she said thank god if its like that. she says that she's worried about me and that she cannot take anymore negative things.



but the thing is... I am seriously flawed. Honestly. I know I am flawed and I dont know how to fix it. I am afraid I cannot control my reaction and things will be far worse. Honestly. I do not know how to love.