Monday, May 31, 2004

There is a reply lol

After fretting myself for two days, Noi replied back to me... and i wonder to myself... is this giddiness manufactured or what?

anyway, since the last 4 posts have all been about Noi, lets talk about other things...

like Nadzri... i just called him up, he says things are not confirmed, or rather, he doesnt know anything yet, nobody told him. Well I'll go check on him at Hardline Office....

and about this blogging thing... how the heck do i put in my profile? in the blog?
BAH things are getting more complicated... cant believe i forgot all my HTML skills.

Saturday, May 29, 2004

I miss you babe...

yep, Noi... I really do miss you . I know it sounds sappy but I couldnt sleep properly coz I'm missing you,,, sigh...

Friday, May 28, 2004

A Beautiful Thai Boy - excerpts from "Adventure of a Wanker"

well he is older than me by a year, but still....

well .. where did i left off? hmm anyway... i that first night, I went with Adam to his friend´s bar, "J&B Boys Massage Bar" dont ask me what J & B stands for since they all dont remember... lol

well anyway, we were just sitting there chatting, when i saw this guy who is totally my type... he was wearing a singlet and beach shorts, funky multi coloured shorts. looking all normal and quiet =D i was immediately smitten... he was working at the neighbouring bar.

anyway to cut the story short.. i went there the next nite, the neighbouring bar that is.. and didnt see him, so naturally I was dissapointed, but as i walked along, i saw that he was at the original bar, sitting at the bar watching a boxing match. i lost my nerve and walked away, but then i cursed to myself, "get some courage bitch"... so i turned around and walked straight there.. mulled for a minute whether to sit at the chair of sit beside him at the bar.. i went to the bar =D

ordered a beer and asked him if he wanted one.. he said he did. and so the story goes.. that was when i first actually met Noi, i thought his name was Nai. Well to cut a long lovely story short, i got to know him that nite and although things were pretty much platonic, i went back to my room alone... =D all this while Adam was bugging me about treating him to this disco and that show and everything else under the sun... you get the point...

anyway, from that nite on, i was hooked on Noi. This guys here is sooo amazing... good looks, amazing heart, and strong, oh my what a strong spirit he has... i was captured... i couldnt stop staring at him... so naturally the next day i stopped by, i cant remember what he was wearing that day except for his usual sandals.. and that he looked good. anyway, i said i hanged out for a bit and when the rain cleared and the shine came thru i said I was torn between sitting here with him and going off exploring the island on motorbike .. he said we should go on the motorbike. i said "you will go with me?" all it took was a nod... so there i was enjoying a midday cruise thru the streets, to the various beaches, stopped at one, went to a temple.. made a prayer (for him to find love =D) and back to Patong Beach. We went our separate ways, me to eat, wash up and go to the sauna.. i had a lovely run on the treadmill and the rest was just not nice enough.. tho i did give somebody a blowjob,.. now at this point, I was beginning to piss myself off since i wasnt enjoying the usual casual encounters.... i find myself think of Noi more and more... a quick shower and back to his bar i went.. as it turns out, the two neighbouring bar is actually owned by the same person, so its actually one establishment, to be renovated later next year =D...

anyway the story continues with Noi or Nai as i think of him, wearing this nice diagonal wavy striped shirt.. oh my god does he look sexy in that.. but he was wearing a tracksuit.. said he dont like wearing jeans... After some more conversation... he actually finally agreed to go to My Way, a Go Go bar with a show.. now this was the first time I am going to a Go Go bar lol ... and it was a first time for him too.. he is the type of guy who stays alone, not going to other places like that.. now, Phuket is infested with bar boys, but although he works in a Bar, he is nothing like a bar boy, more like a quiet bartender... so we went, and enjoyed ourselves and were supposed to go to a disco called boat bar, where there was another show... anyway, Am and Nai had to go back to their bar first... so me and Adam headed to Boat Bar... where i met Chet and Nob, who are in their circle of friends. i tell you... i had a lousy time, i tried to have a great time but i keep on looking out the window, hoping he would come...

after a while i just gave up and left.. so you would have found me walking alone to J&B... i rather call it BJ personally.. and there they were.. Nai and his friends.. having a blast... his shirt was undone .. grrrrrrrrrr Nathalie was there.. she is one pretty drag Queen and in no time at all she has me engaged in a challenge of 4-in-A-row. fast forward.. after much noisy bickering and teasing it was set that lose takes off a garment and both contestants take a swig. =D

needless to say, although i did end up in my birthday suit, i was able to prolong the match so that Nathalie had to take off everything except her bra and panties... lol that nite i will remember even tho i was raging drunk lol ...

now something happened that nite which i wish i could change.. i was walking back to my room when i met chet and nob.. blah blah blah they said they wanted to see my room since they have never been up to connect... so i brought them up.. and ohmy god.. i tried soo much not to have sex with them, they really wanted to .. i mean threesome.. so i agreed but then i almost threw up, prolly since the movement was too fast lol ... anyway,,.. somehow i really didnt want to have sex with these two small built thai boys, exactly my type... i really honestly didnt want.. i would rather spend an afternoon with Nai chatting than, have hot threesome sex with them.. so at last i managed to persuade them to find somebody better...

now the thing is.. I dont regret my actions, but somehow the things some people said to Nai was just plain mean... I heard this later... from Nai himself, after much prodding...

so as the circumstances fell,.. Nai saw me as a butterfly, even though i really wasnt.. honest, i was pretty much faithful to a potential... that is what i am eternally sad about but i guess i should really be thankful... i will get back to that later...

the next day i woke up a bit late and went str8 to find Nai... he was wearing black shirt and blue jeans and blue slippers lol... A bottle of beer and a long conversation with Ryder the Australian later... i asked Nai out for lunch.. man this boy will not leech of me at all... we ended up eating at KFC.. and I had to really insist i wanted to pay... so after lunch the sky miraculously cleared up leaving the sun to shine bright .. so i said i wanted to go to the beach,... he said, we drop off his boss's lunch first... so off we went to the beach... now at the beach quite a few things happened but nothing that involves Nai except for the fact that he couldnt stay long... he had to work.. that was the first time i sensed regret in him.. anyway... i stayed at the beach till late..

later that night I went back to his bar to his friends birthday party.. bought a bottle of whisky for everybody and enjoyed the nite... sitting beside him the whole while.. he told me about his brothers used car entreprise and how his brother wants him to join the business... Nai is a farmer boy, back when he was young, after tending the farm, they'd go to market and sell all manner of things... =D that made me love him more.. this man has many shades of rainbow in his life =D

anyway.. since everybody wanted to go to MyWay, and since Nai also wants to go.. oh yea, that night he was dressed to kill.. I like to flatter myself in thinking he got all dressed up just for me.. a white shirt with some coloured print on it, khakis pants, and nice new sneakers!!! gorgeous.. i bought a disposable camera... so if all goes well I will post pictures here... so we went to MyWay, had a blast tho i didnt get a kink in my neck from craning... anyhow they wanted to continue at some bar but i was adamant that i didnt want to go.. Nai insisted that since this was my last nite i should go and be happy, have fun and dance... I told him simple and cornily, straight from the movie Beautiful Thing, "I'm Happy when I'm with you". I couldnt help myself.. so that night was spent, just the two of us at the bar in quiet conversation.. lovely.. i couldnt ask for more.. oh maybe sofa's instead of stools... lol what we talked about shall remain between me and him. but i shall treasure it forever... no matter what happens to either of us from now on... =D it was a lovely but expensive Phuket Holiday indeed...

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

Well I am in Phuket...

LOVING IT!!!! the beach is beautiful not enough people around tho for serious ogling lol

and sad to say ,.. thai boys are now quite corrupt.. its always about the money.. i mean i aint swimming in it!!! its starting to put me off...

but other than that.. its nice.. the guesthouse is cool i actually made two bookings, the last 3 nights at the budget room and the first at a standard room since the budget was booked on the 24th... and the nice reception gave me the standard room for my whole stay... how lovely..

went to the beach.. swam a bit. was hoping to go to the beach today too but its raining.. last night went for a drink met Adam who ithink is str8 because he didnt suck me back... and dont worry i didnt swallow.. so should be safe..

anyhow.. more stories after I've lived them...

Monday, May 24, 2004

Phuket Here I cummm....

lol ok and just like that,.. I am off to Phuket... and just in case I am kidnapped .. the email from the place where i will be staying (connect@patong) is in my yahoo mail ... nadia knows the password so go rummage in there.. lol

anyway .. its cheap RM560 accomodation and air ticket for 5 days 4 nites...

hope i have fun .. no pics tho since I wont bring a camera...

ciao

Saturday, May 22, 2004

Just keeping with tradition...

so basically I joined Fridae last night cool place.. i need to tweak it tho .. argh... gonna take some days...

anyhow... watched Torch Song Trilogy ... MYGOD Matthew Broderick is so damn hot and that movie was REALLY really good.. i totally loved it.. made me cry too ... oh damnit!! it was so darn good... shiit.

oh well.. today is going to be a long day.. i am thinking i need to cancel plans with ser yee.. cant get off day on the weekend.. maybe i?l go to bangkok instead,...

Friday, May 21, 2004

such a looooong day yesterday

yep it was a bloody long day yesterday.. work from 7am to 11pm... talk about crazy... anyway... aint doing that ever again... i dont think I'll be able to go to that reunion thing at MiCasa.... other people are cuti on the 1st... shiit ....

i feel guilty sometimes.. i really should call and meet up wit my MRSM friends .. havent seen them in a long time ...

shiit .. i am meeting up with Ser Yee today...

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

Of all the things that can happen

I actually wrongly posted here... it was actually meant for my JUSCO blog. anyway,.. I've decided to make this a daily activity...

well tommorrow I have to wake up at 5am and start work at 7am.. today is just stressful.. just like the other days of this week and last...

anyway... mom and family found out Nadia? boyfriend is actually married with kids<< well only one. they went ballistics....

no money right now,.. and am hesitating about Asiaworks...

Steve is an asshole... didnt answer my calls... i need a new potential....

there was something spectacular i wanted to tell but i forgot.. anyway .. until tommorow

Monday, May 10, 2004

Happy Mother's Day...

I know its too late but who cares...

was updating gaydar just now and cruising the profiles... some really cool people are out there... then i saw somebody who i thought looked alot like Danny.. and it turns out I was right lol... not like the last time,.. I actually thought Gary was Daniel that drunkard night lol... anyway figured might as well update a bit

early morning didnt turn out to be so early after all.. everybody forgot to wake me up to go to early mothers day lunch.. :(
but as it turns out... my sis who was the one belanjaing... was late.. as usual lol... so we ended up leaving the house at 11am... went to midvalley where i work (cause i had to work that afternoon.. starting 1.15)

actually now that i think of it.. today was pretty eventful...

anyway,.. we actually had reservations at Amarin Heavenly Thai Restaurant but since my mother didn't trust how halal the place was, we decided on Chili's .. after much waiting and fidgeting... my sis finally arrived.. I belanjaed my family starbucks while waiting.. so we headed to Chili's ... I went off to swipe at work and came back with my food all ready.. chicken mushroom jack... very delicious fajitas ... unfortunately.. I was done eating all my food baru the other orders arrived.. (my sis had rushed my order first coz I had to catch the work timetable thingy) ... anyhow... even tho the morning started really bad .. I was SOOO pissed off at my eldest sister earlier.. but the lunch ended very nicely...

anyway,... at work i was pulled aside by my japanese boss, the first five minutes i entered... (hehehe i stole like 30 mins from work) .,.. man, i almost shat my pants,. I thought he found out lol.. but it turns out my colleague who is like totally cute had quit work earlier.. 24 hours notice.. like totally unprofessional.. anyhow.. from there on, the day progress in a weird fashion.. i cant put a finger on it but it was a weird day...

my sis told me she saw Trevor having lunch at Chili's too.. speaking of which, i have still yet to find that lil bugger of a bastard's profile on Gaydar.. I know he is there somewhere. he refered the site to me for friggin sake.

anyway
gnite ..

Saturday, May 08, 2004

Back from Frangipani

Ok so I promised myself I'd write about Steve but he can wait another day...

I've just came back from frangipani.... this is the things that happened..

got off work at 10:45 pm .... called up Ser Yee, took a cab to sungai wang. Met Ser Yee there.. hopped on his car. brought him to the wrong parking LOL! Sorry Ser Yee!!! totally... then walked back in front of Capitol Hotel, where Lees ( dunno her spelling ) picked us up (she don't know her way around)..

then drove to Frangi and found a parking space... walked towards Frangi and HOLA!! there at the door was Lees ś brother who happens to be gay. So there we were ... had fun mingling around, saying hi to frens and such. then my sis came, wit her frens, had more fun talking to her friends. then collins came all...

basically it was GREAT.. tonite was great...

BTW, I got almost full salary Bonus lol that' s amazing. so i get to live...