Emotions gone haywire

I lost my phone. no more numbers.

Its been a long time since I last posted and emotional heart rending. This is one such post. I don't know how to put things in words. I don't know how to post. I am angry right now, well now I am just sad and melancholic but earlier I was mad. My anger has been simmering for 2 days now and its not about the phone.

Its about the perception of somebody I care very much about. What he percieves me to be. I dont know what most people think of me. I hope its positive but I know at times, that may not be so.

Tapi hati I terguris, mula mula sikit je tapi lama and lama.. makin difikir and makin dilayan perasaan nie.. and dia pon xde ke nak tanya ke apa.. setakat hantar org lain kata nak cakap tapi sendiri x dtg. funny thing is... usually what he said would have been true but not last sunday morning.. what happened wasnt at all what he was thinking.. Maybe thats just it.. we feel worse if we were accused for doing something that we didnt do even though we would normally have done. Maybe, its because he didn't give me the benefit of a doubt. I don't even know why he would be upset if I stayed the night at a hotel I dont know why it would be a bad thing. but to say it. To actually say it made me think that perhaps thats all he thought there was to me. So little of me.

Is that it?? I've never really expressed emotionally to anybody, really. maybe sometimes and the only person ever who i confided what my true feeling is was to my sister nadia and that was only on the subject matter of my father. And even that, the feeling was mutual. And this blog, I've wrote things that I've actually never told anybody.. conveyed emotions that I wouldn't show.

maybe that's why I was so upset. That he only say that one side of me. Was I never sincere? Was I never honest with him? I could never be the abang angkat to him that most could. I could never give him anything financially. I could never give any special consideration at work. And if I did, I could never be outright with it. There is nothing special I can give anybody. There is only me and my time. It hurts that he only saw the picture everybody see.

Yes, I can't love somebody like you are supposed to love your lover. Its not in me. And yes, I can me without mercy at times but that doesnt mean I do not care. FUCK! I care a lot about every single fucking friend of mine. Someone I already forgot who once said that I only love myself. Maybe it was my eldest sister. Maybe its true.

Funny, did you know I show more love to my friends than to my own family? to my late dad, to my mother, even to my sister nadia who I love to bits? Maybe its because there is so much more to lose with your family. What? you think that I dont care my sister nini doesnt talk to me anymore? It hurts too much if I dwell on that. I've only just begun to love myself. And thats that?

Why did I read all those books? Why do I love fiction and not non-fiction? why Fantasy where the worlds dont exist and anything can happen as long as u justify it? Its because this fucking life is depressing enough as it is. Let me laugh and have fun as much as I can because I know life will smack u down at any time.

I dont even know what I am rambling about. I am just so sad to know that somebody I care about thinks so little of me. I was angry because he didnt ask me what happened. I was angry because he made assumptions and that what happened on that sunday morning was something bad. WE WERE at RUUMS up until almost 6am because we were just trying to help a friend. Or even just to be there.

So we all slept at her place. What the hell was I supposed to do? There was barely time to sleep. My car is still not working and I cannot afford a cab home! PLUS I just fucking lost my phone!!!

but then to him. If its me then its all about sex. I must have been naughty. So now I am sad because he said I was being childish for being angry at everyone at work. That I should have investigated about the whole thing. That I wasnt acting my age.

I am fucking sad because he doesnt appreciate who I am. I dont act my age. I never did. I don't have an age. I am just me. Thats all I could ever be. All I can ever offer. Why the fuck do you think that I dont try to be stylish as I can? Why do you think that I dont try harder to get fit. Why do you think that I dont chase the money.

Because all I ever wanted was for somebody to like me for who I am. People who love me because I burp alot. people who love me because I talk too loud. people who love me because I am always broke. because I smile alot. because I dare or dont dare. honestly, I have never really taken offence at somebody because of their lack. Just if they are rude, in thought or actions. It scares me if I become rich, they'll love me for the things I can get them. It scares me if I am buff and muscular, they'll love me for my hotness. I want it but it scares me.

When I was in school. I didnt have anybody who I consider a real friend. Only one or two. But I never opened up fully. I was never in any clique or circle. I never thought that I was somebody that they had to have there. I was always the afterthought. Just the add-on. Never the core. Its only at college that I discovered the true value of friendship. I just want somebody that is just happy to have me around.

Thats why I love my good friends. I didnt need to bring anything, I didnt need to have anything. I just can be there and its enough. Those days and memories of just doing nothing with your friends are what I love. The guys in kk. the guys in klang. Taman Universiti. Kota Damansara with Syam and the gang.

more rambling. sorry. vince didnt like the other half of me. The side of me that I showed him on Gunung Nuang with my friends. I dont think that Jeff would appreciate the bottom me. the flambouyant me. The crazy me.

so ends what ever thoughts I had in my head. there is no conclusion. I making more mistakes than rectifying them. i'll probably get more trouble and headache from writing this than wat its worth.

Gunung Nuang camping Trip

--excerpt from my guys4men forum..

HOHOHO HAHAHAHA HUZZINA TULIP IN DA HOUSE!!

best best best best best .. berbaloi.. sakit2 .. abiss RM90 gi urut urut and kena kutuk kaww kaww kat tempat kerja hohohohohoh wa x sesal sikit pon bebs..

tenQ to all yg telah sacrifice kan diri utk kitak sumer.. anak ikan LCCT yg telah hilang mahkota Zariah Bagan... tenQ very much.. Babyboy becoz of all the preliminarywork yg tanpa nyer... abuk pon x muncul hohoho.. mak long gandalf yg susah payah masak utk kiteorang.. and sendiri pon x makan .. and pastu gagah tue daki puncak esoknye.. and balik plak first team hohoho... sayang nangis di moss garden.. if not sure very the macho one.. heheheh change tune to english la.. becoz abg kian yg very the gagah amek gambaq canteq2 (plese photoshop i jadik slim.. )

encik Fuad hehehe becoz jadi penghulu gitu.. and purespirit coz gagah jadi trooper master
for me, its was a great experience hehehe even though went there with my bf vince but hampeh.. we didnt even get to spend much time together.. he spent more time eyeing all the hensem guys around hohohoho but its okla... standardla.. the climb up to camp was tough.. especially with a heavy load but i thanked god i got the proper gear for it all.. good backpak... not like last time..i sorang angkat dapur dlm toyogo atas kepala macam minnachi... hehehhehe mengungkit nie..

anyway.. the climb to the peak was also tough.. the terrain was very challenging with some near vertical ascents hohohoho... like spiderman gitu..

the peak was a little bit dissapointing because of tall trees, cannot see the view.. but then again because of the fog, i dont think i could see anything at all.. but the journey was well worth it..

I may be overweight and x macho.. but hey i boleh jadik pondan perkasa tau hohohoho time turun dari puncak tue. ada lah pakcik tue separuh umur tue boleh potong kite.. heheheh me, martin, fuad and zerrie la yg tertinggal belakang.. so apa lagi.. mana boleh org tua potong line hehehehe . so i pon dengan takut2 nyer start la.. jalan laju2 .. pastu terus full speed larik down the mountain.. overtaking group group yg awal daki puncak tadi.. hohoho time tue berlagak sikit la hohohohoho.. tapi i want to apologize to all my teammates yg worried for me..especially the 3 yg i sayang sgt tue.. sanggup walau tgh sakit2 .. jalan laju2 carik i coz wory.. i am sorry x bagitau awal2 ... bukannyer apa.. i tot boleh la igi amek air kat pacat tue.. mana la nak tahu... kat pacat tue tempat airnyer pergh punyer la jauh n challenging .. tobat nyesal..

anyway.. pastu.. dari pacat ..lepas rest n investigaton, baru dapat tahu.. depa 3 orang is already in front.. the other hikers even told me .. they were moving very fast.. so apa lagi.. lepas minum air puncak yg very the cold and very the sweet n refreshing tue..i sambung la larik!!! hohohoho kelasss pondan perkasa heheheh... xdela.. nie masuk bakul angkat sendiri nie.. last 2 jumpa depa nakdekat camp site dah.. tobat sia2 hehehehe

oh btw... pagi buta tue .. kiteorang yg main card+ audience ada nampak hantu.. well makhluk hutan la.. ingat kan campers lain tgh carik brg tercicir tapi rupanya across the river tue kan very steep cliff .. mano ado org nak jalan2kat situ.. plus now i think about it.. ada cahaya tue.. plus 2 sets of glowing blue eyes..

eee seram...

Gue Jantan Tulen BEB!!

HA! siapa kata gay xleh jadik jantan tulen.. I baru je lepas gi camping+panjat gunung+waterfall+hiking ... ko mampu?

heheheh yea.. sometimes buat kerja adventure best giler.. Actually I skrg nie tgh kat Sauna so malas la nak mengarang 7000 patah perkataan punye post.. lagipon org bukannyer baca kan?

so i buat konsert prelude je la dulu.. hoho

Yap i gi camping kat Berkelah in Kuantan.. memang best sgt. The pictures I post nie ikut chronicle (malas) okay.. so sabar2 je la scroll down utk tengok gamba2 menarik...


gi hari sabtu pagi... janji jam 8:30 jumpa kat R&R highway Karak tapi biasala ada org tue ter over tido katakan.. no wonder la i send sms jam 6:30 pagi lewat giler dia balas. Anyway.. gi camping ramai2 ... hmmm khemah sumer free tapi makan RM30 utk 2 mlm 2 hari nyer .. perjalanan tontong sama rata.. I kena RM45 .. 3 org satu keta.. becoz kena balik awal punya hal la nie... org lain balik isnin kami je yg balik isnin gamatnyer...

tapi in the end after that long long loooooooong hike up to the main waterfall yg tersangat lah beautiful tue.. they all decided utk balik juga ari tue :) walaupon if it was up to me, I would stay up there and enjoy lama2.. tapi hati girang becoz we all kumpul in KL that nite also.. and my naked pics nie telah ditayangkan secara umum di R&R mana tataw.. hohoho..

cuba tengok tue.. x boleh la .. planning nak buat post summary tapi last2 ... jadi post menjela2 macam biasa.. hmm nvm la.. I letak gambor yg telah diuploadkan dulu ye.. nanti i fill in the blanks (kunun.. padahal post2 sebelum nie yg i kata akan sambung pon x buat juga... )

hanjeng punye fotopages.. xleh link.. sundel sgt. xpe la nanti i upload ori pictures

I am going Camping!!!!

Yep.. I am going camping!!! hohohoho been ages since I've been camping. This trip is organized by the mates or should I say Males of Guys4Men.com hohoho it was in the forums since last month... and I just decided heck, it could be fun. Even though I dont know any of them but.. yesterday I did go to the meeting with some of them..

the pic on the right was taken last night by abg TT. Dua2 sesat semalam and then tak tahu mana org semua coz we didnt know anybody in real life hohoho.. but there were only a few people there but still they were very nice.

anyway cannot wait,.. the place is berkelah falls, somewhere on the way to Kuantan.. A bunch of Gay guys in the jungle hohoho.. the food was provided by somebody .. RM30 for 2 nights food .. and transport just shared spread even. tents and all are considered free la.. tapi no sleeping bags .. :( i got no place to sleep comfortably on... hmm

Langkawi Trip

yes I am broke. and Yes I did go to Langkawi.. I have paid for the plane ticket already.. so I went anyway..

I'll post pics later.. but lets do the summary first.. lest I bore u guys to death.

accomodation
Venue: AB Motel, Chenang beach
Price: RM 120 per room per night (2 double beds) therefore divided by 4 persons making it RM60 per person for 2 nights
Transportation RM50 per person for 48 hours including petrol costs.

yep the flight was at 4pm something on friday. I managed to make it although I was late a few minutes. The flight was problem free and we arrived there with still the afternoon sun heating us up. Arrived at the hotel in a jiff, its really near to the airport. It seems that everytime I go on vacations, I seem to be the only one raring to go hohoho.. I didnt have shorts so i quickly went to buy some, of course I met up with my old SL Rosli and a girl I can barely remember.. Ok I cant remember her at all but she seems to know me hohoho. Used to work in jusco also la.. we went to the food/drink stalls nearby. Oh it was purely coincidence but that weekend was the week Langkawi had its Pesta Air or Water Festival. There were loads of people hohoho of course there will be loads of cute malay boys also. and Lots of things for sale.

anyway.. I browsed around the shops and bought a red cheap shorts for RM10. apa lagi.. went back to the room.. changed and dived into the water.. HOHOHO i was like the only one who jumped in.. after that short dip, we went to have dinner in Kuah, it was rather uneventful.. but there was fireworks, visible where we had dinner. We ate near Buena Vista Hotel.. ok je.. Apparently there is a concert thingy at Dataran Lang. Even Mawi is supposed to perform.. hohoho.. had dinner and apalagi.. I called up N*, I actually called up R* but he was working in Bayview.. hmm would have gone there but how? cant ask them to wait around while I chatted up with R*, besides, he was working.. so I called up N* instead altho I cant really remember his face.

everybody left, the veterans and family people went back to the motel in one van and the young kids went to Dtaran Lang in the wagon.. I waited for N*.. he soon came and picked me up on his motorcycle.. we went to his workplace STarbux in Dataran Lang of all places lol.. so managed to watch the concert abit. it was some chinese guy. but we soon decided to leave and thats when Mawi came on, last act katakan.. tapi we ols blah je.. tak kuasa nak tunggu,.. at first the plan was to go to a beach nearby but since his housemates were not in hehehe we decided head to his place.. IT was starbux hostel and it was more like a hotel man.. sheet it was grand.. with astro some more.. watch Akademi Fantasia a bit and 13 ghosts a bit,. In a very romantic close proximity hug thingy lagi hohoho

a little bit of fondling and rubbing and the festivities began in the bedroom hohohoho.. I tell u .. it was the FIRST TIME IN HISTORY THAT I became a fucking TOP!!! he was very nice and helpful, being very patient and giving tips and encouragment.. it didnt last that long but we did 3 positions hohoho.. then I went flat and we switched roles.. hoho it was very satisfying.. NICE! I went to have a shower when suddenly he stepped in the bathroom and said that his housemate is back and I should be quiet.. hmmm as it turns out.. HE panicked for no reason as he mistook MY shoes for his roomate.. we had a few good laughs over that.

back at the motel.. I joined my friends on the beach, a few minutes after that I noticed a flash of movement in the sea further up the beach.. I told my friends that there are people swimming nekkid there hohoho no body bloody believe me, in fact they looked and cant even see anybody swimming at all. they all said it was impossible that I can see people skinny dipping.. so apa lagi.. I said fine, and walked up nearer to take a look.. sure enough there were 3 people in the sea, all mat salleh, there were more of their friends on the beach.. of the 3, only one was wearing something at the waist area hohoo.. I am not the type who would gawk and stare and hence spoil the fun so I turned back said "What did I tell you?" do not doubt me about these things hohohoho

so it was pretty interesting for them.. anyway... I later on took a night swim but clothed la.. I was a bit dissapointed because when I got back to the room .. Awinz this cute sabahan boy i like slept with Yan and that leaves an empty space next to Rosli.. :( but to be fair, it was understandable since I knew all three of them but While Awinz and Yan knew each other very well, they didnt know Rosli that well..

anyway the next day was quite a bore.. we went for breakfast and even though initially all I wanted to stay at the motel and laze around on the beach, they managed to convince me to go with them.. to see Mahsuri mausoleum or in malay Makam Mahsuri which Rosli belanja the entrance.. and after that Black Sand beach which is a bore, it might have been interesting a decade ago but really.. black sand? its not even pretty. hmmm we did go to hot spring somewhere after that but that was also a dissapointment.. since the well is so small while the whole complex is huge.. plus its just hot.. not even bubbling..

after that the boys insisted we all go to the Jetty which wasnt on the original plan.. Initially they wanted to go to the cable car which I didnt want to go since it costs RM15, so in the ended we split again.. 1 car went their own way.. the very cute and i though unavailable Farhan and us who went to survey Island Hopping prices.. Anyway, it was 220 for a boat, 12 people.. only 10 people went not me since it would mean paying RM25 -RM37 (it ended up RM37 since 2 didnt go)

What did I do? hohoho laze on the beach, slept under the shade in the beach, catwalked up and down the beach attracting glances and catcalls which I smiled at ... very the hadek hadek hohohoh it was fun, dancing in the sea since there was like bands and Music playing at the beach, there was going to be a concert there later that night.. while i was dancing there were also a bunch of people cheering, or yelling or shouting at me hohoho u know la.. melayu jakun.. I basically ignored them aside from the initial flirting ..

in the end, I did befriend 2 very cute boys swimming in the sea , Mizi and Shah hohoho they are helping their brothers in the stalls.. I couldnt find their stalls later that night but hey, its really the memories that count. Nothing happened.. but hey a man can dream right? well I'lll continue with the updates later.. along with pictures once I get them from Eida..

Gigihnyer AKU!!!

YESS! I am very the gigih(industrious).. hmmm lets see.. how was the weekend? half and half.. Friday, i picked up collins from Sentral, then went over to pick uup 3 boys from *** Damansara.. I can never remember the exact name for that place..its near IKEA.. if you go under the thingy instead of to the left..

anyway.. we went to La Queen that night oh but first we ate at Kedai Kak Ara, near Blue Boy. Hmm after that I got a call from Nik from sarawak who i got in contact with thru G4M. He said he just checked in Hotel Imperial next to KFC BB. so I went to to bring him over to La Queen.. sheet.. we waited like 45minutes but no show.. he did call me la.. so it wasnt like that lame of him.

I can understand.. he hasnt met me before, and there I was bringing along 3 other person huhuhu I would have been shy too .. . wait huhuuh I wouldnt .. anyway we left anyhow... after he didnt answer the calls or sms.. what to do.. which in fact was kinda kewl too coz by the time we arrived at La Queen, it wasnt too early.. In fact when we got in, it was kinda empty.. I even got that sinking feeling in the pit of the stomach that sez, "Where the fuck is the party" and "Loser!" at the same time.. hohoho but apparently, after some sign or cue that I have no idea about, may be there is a standardized time when its ok to start coming in?

Coz the flow didnt stop after the place was packed hohoho so many cute boyz.. well lets just cut it short by saying I had loads of fun... even some people I know =) basically had fun.. oh did i tell u, tonite was to bring their friend Mizie out coz he aint never been gay clubbin before .. and sheeet he never been to the Queens Park either.. so thats where we went afterwards.. suffice to say that I stayed there quite late as there were quite a few people I knew and quite a few I got to know hohohoho..

came home around 5 or something.. woke up showered, at around 10 or 11, got in the car with my mom and bro.. and drove to KUANTAN! hohohoho! yess... I didnt even get that much sleep. Which was why I drove until after Temerloh... and then my mom drove.

the way back to kl i drove all the way.. but in KUANTAN, it was boring! yep.. I dont think i ever want to travel with my mother again. I mean if budget is tight, then stay at budget places but I guess when u get older, nagging is like i dunno enjoyable. Plus she didn't let me use the car at night also. said I didnt know the roads.. like hello.. i went to kuantan on my own, found my sister's campus on my own and bloody drove everywhere there on my own. Plus i drove in fucking singapore alonE! for friggin's sake.. I think I could handle a 2km drive to Teluk chempedak from Annexe RestHouse (RM80/ROOMx2).

I bet you she thought I was gonna get some man pussy. Which I was planning on hhuhuu sorry Din(G4M) couldnt make it.. but me being stubborn as i normally am. Decided to fucking walk on my god given two fuckin legs to bloody Teluk Chempedak 2 fuckin kilometers away. Ok, I didnt actually know it was 2 km away until after I have started my journey. everything was fine.. until I arrived there.. then it rained.. and it didnt stop.... huhuhuhu hmmm but between boredom and wet.. i will usually choose wet.. so i walked around still hmmm Teluk Chempedak would be an AMAZING place for camping.. there is this hidden beach reachable thru the raised pathways and it looks heaven (ok it was dark) plus i betcha I could skinny dip as early as 10pm there .. hohohoho

i did meet some people.. kids actually but since I was smelling rather funky, I didnt want to test the graciousness.. even though one was fuckin cute.. huhu.. trust me to find a cute kid in the dark while its raining. so the story ends with me walking back which is always a chore since there is nothing to look forward to. and now my legs are sore and my left feet hurts..

hmmmm silly me.

I am sooooooooooo tired!!

well I worked late last night.. and the night before, not to mention i had a busy2 weekend..

so in sypnosis I'll just tell the bare details.. hmm on fri after work, I picked up Arul from ILP. After that, we went to Collins's place in damansara perdana. The plan was to help him move some things over to his new place in ritz perdana, its right next door.

So biasala, Me and Arul went for a swim at the swimming pool huhuhu wanted to fool around in there but he wasnt that game hohoho.. so we both went back upstairs la drippin wet and all... I told him to get into the bathroom first. At which point when i went to the living room collins asked, "Save water, go shower together" "We dont have that kind of relationship" I replied. huhuhu but then i went to that bathroom and opened the door huhuhu it wasnt locked =) i pon cakap "nak join sama" hahaha and so we mandi sama.. in the end he ended up fucking me WOOOOT!!! this is the first time ... hohoho...

so after that we helped collins move.. and headed to La Queen. only RM8 entrance for softdrinks huhuhu.. I wanted to ajak more people but everybody I called was not around. But La Queen was FUCKING AWESOME! tapi sayang, Arul is actually a very good dancer tapi he was sooo tired out, he couldnt dance. huhuhu i guess he plays rugby and all but he doesnt have a gay man's stamina for clubbin.

ok so La Queen ended at around 3pm, I met Isis Natasha on the dance floor that night, okla it was the podium where i met her. and later on Kie also came over. There was someone else who was there that knew me but i didnt know where he knows me. oOoOoOo maybe it's that guy who works in Liquid.. i dunno la..

so after La Queen, I called up Zamani, "lets go taseq permaisuri" hehehehe.. so i went to sentul, picked him up, gi to taseq, hanged out with his old friend Adi who just passed the first Police Inspector exams/interview huhuhu.. he wants to be known as Inspector Sheila. That night(morning la) we slept at Zamani's place until sat evening. The whole day was spent playing cards with his cute str8 housemate named hairul huhuhu... as usual, I hit on him like nobody's business.. and then we waited for Adli to come and brought him to Mirage. It was his first time to a sauna hohoho. wanted to go to Otot2 but it was alredy 7pm a little bit late..

okla i didnt have fun.. tapi after that at like 1am, we went for supper in kg baru and hey presto! decided to have a movie marathon! boleh? so I pilih "300", Adli pilih that buaya movie and Zamani picked a stupid national lampoon movie featuring Paris Hilton.

hahaha as u can tell we woke up late.. after which oombha came over, dia ajak gi umah andi tapi we ols dinch. and off we went to Otot2. this time I balik sendiri lepas tu.. tapi u know wat? lepas otot2 I forgot.. I promised Collins I would send him to KLIA in the morning.. so apa lagi? tidoq la kat damansara perdana .. but you know la.. I dont get to watch Astro that often, so I watched Heroes, Grey's anatomy and fashion house dulu before tidoq. I sent collins to Sentral in the morning like at 7:30am. there wasnt time to send him elsewhere if I didnt want to be late for work.

Oh and at work, I finished up what my boss asked. Siap kena marah lagi tue.. the guy expects me to work over the weekend. then worked on the brand discoveries for a credit card company. guess what?

THAT LASTED UNTIL 2am!!! got in to work at around 11:15am the next day and ended up staying up until 5am this morning... !! bangun lambat skit .. and clocked in to work today at noon. VOLEH!!

so I AM FREAKING TIRED!! oh sheet i forgot to tell you, i managed to meet Aiskrem Potong huhuhu he is here on holiday from Dubai.. we have plans to party at La Queen this fri! huhuhu he gave me a camel as a keepsake =)

Bela Ikan. future + sekali anak ikan

ok to start the story... I have to start right after I went to Lee Kim's CNY Open House. I went back to work. I know that suxx but what to do.. My colleague who my boss told me to help said the data I gave her was
insufficient. She wants more.. so i ended up researching for the data until 6am. What suxx ass is that I could only substantiate about 4 or 6 of her data.. for like 7-8 hours of work on a SUNDAY!

anyway.. I went home. slept for like 2 hours << BUT it wasnt such a waste of time. Since we were able to ask him questions and all..

previously, I had dinner/supper with my old friend Nizam from Jusco. He works with Maju Ikan now.. anyway.. I had and still do have the hots for him but he oredi kahwin plus he has a child oredi. Still, its fun to flirt.. anyway when i told him about this thingy.. he said I should do Keli because Patin demand fluctuates and tilapia dies easily. Of course he said I should just do cows and lamb/sheep.

Anyway.. I went home... and still I got other work to do lol I had to take photos of giant, c4, tesco, jusco, BHP, petronas mesra, projet 7-11, pharmacies.. and a bunch of others la.. But I was soooo freaking tired.. I went to Wazi's to rehat.. I had an appointment wit Ryan at Shah Alam at 8pm and it was around 5pm or a lil bit earlier. So lazy that I ended up watching Rumour Has It. Which was a pretty good movie! of course I sempat la gi shah alam and also stopped a bit at the BHP on the was to snap snap the pics..

seksyen 19 was a bit hard to find though. anyway to cut the story short.. he gave me a BJ while I fingered him lol.. in the car! a bit tough to find secluded spots though. So basically when ever i am in Shah Alam for watever reason.. I usually would end up in Bandar Baru Klang! lol yep I went to snappy snappy in Jusco Klang.. of course since I still got quite an influence there.. terus terang je I amek gambor.. plus amek gambor with my jambu2 lol .. nakal tetap.. anyway that nite i lepak umah Ridzuan je.. sambil tengok movie Night at the Museum <<

well this last picture is me grabbing somebody hahahahaha .... and there are pictures of my ex colleagues and ex staff and ex jambu2..

Best time EVER!

Well yesterday was Colin punya birthday. I have to differentiate that this Colin is a different person that I usually refer to as Collins. pening sikit tapi nak buat macam mana kan? Colin nie.. kechik je orangnyer.. jambu sangat .. rupa macam budak kecik .. 18 thn pon kita x percaya.. tapi umor nye sama ngan i tahu! actually tua sikit.. anyway... pasangan hidupnyer adalah si Derrick.. mat salleh yg badan sasa tu.. konek besau tau! I pon x tahu macam mana boleh masuk dlm bontot colin yg kiut tu..

Anyway.... i picked up marilyn and we all jadi org pertama yg sampai.. Colin made his signature cocktail a heavenly mix of Asam Boi ayor with Vodka lol very the malaysian.. masa tu birdcage was on the telly.. best nonton! oklah.. kembali ke cerita..

sikit sikit org makin ramai.. sampai ramai gilo! most of them i x kenal or x ingat lol.. kekwat sgt kan? makan lite lite.. setakat tidbits je.. i pon dah makan awal2 lagi.. and a couple hours of mingling.. we were actually waiting for Derrick si suami, he went to a his son's company's dinner.. with his son of course la .. hehehe hensem sgt anak dia.. accent pon best.. cair gue.. story about the son.. apperently, he just found out a couple weeks ago that daddy likes cute boys. How he found out was unique.. in he walked into the dad's apartment and BOOM! there was this huge gay pride flag on the wall hehehe (maklumat nie dapat bila i interview si anak dia lepas pesta udeh selesai)

Ok.. so that nite adala si Joel nie yg i ada jumpa and sembang dengan several times.. xde la rapat sgt tapi boleh la.. hensem sgt.. so my type.. lol

mat salleh dua ekor tu sampai je.. we all makan kek.. sedap sgt !! kelass gitu.. i think maybe warren yg buat.. sundel tu memang pandai buat kek.. so who ever yg ada wedding nak org buatkan kek.. call dia ok? dia pastry chef Shang Ri La bebs.. after dilly dally we ols bergerak ke Liquid.. si trevor, marilyn and Joel nie naik keta I, tapi hanjeng my car buat sial.. the bloody remote wouldnt work! so in the end, we ended up hitching a ride with Alison and her very very cute boyfren (tho I am confused since warren did say at the end of the night that Alison was a dyke. Damn, I could have made a move on that hunk!) Oh well.. we didnt have to pay a cent since Derrick bought like loads and loads of booze.. I minum lite lite je...

but boy did we have fun! my partner in crime for that nite was Joel! lol bolehla.. bonding la katakan.. hmm i think I wasnt his type since it seemed very platonic.. anyway.. i really really liked the way he danced.. he can moved and it wasnt like the others.. I almost broke my hips trying to match his dance lol.. but I did dance for a loooong time with Maliza, this hot indian chick, before she hooked up with anak derrick lol.. kelass u know. i had her handbag slung over my shoulder and still dance like org gila lol..

things was magickal that nite.. We (marilyn and I) only wished that Collins could have been there.. then it was complete.. the DJ's were wonderful (i think la), lots of people in our group.. dance with a whole bunch of them .. oh ya .. i tore my pants at the butt seam.. hahaha when i was dancing with maliza.. this was in the early part of the night lol.. tapi still danced on.. tolong la.. u think life can spoil my nite that easily?

anyway.. that nite i bunked at Joel's place.. dekat je dengan umah si derrick yg menara bukit ceylon.. joel's is called mutiara .. it was a single bedroom apartment. but wayyy spacious.. I slept on the couch and he served a very healthy breakfast .. steamed egg and toast no butter mind u .. apprently he is a health freak which would explain why I am not his type lol.. I am a life freak lol.. oh yea quote of the night from Warren "I am a trisexual. I'll try anything sexual..."
so that ends the fun part my festivities.. after leaving joel's .. I went over to the car.. with my pants torn and all. tried to fix the damn thing.. managed to disable the alarm .. but nomatter what I did.. i couldnt start the engine.. last last i jalan2 cari air bateri tapi xdo.. and then i called up my brother in law's little brother.. hehehe he told me there is a button under the dashboard..
and what do you know? there is!! so end of problem.. lol ..i left that place so fast.. but then at home i realized I didnt have my house keys.. apparently I left it at warrens .. and i couldnt get in the house.. and when I wanted to go my sis punya place.. the bloody car died! wouldnt start.. and it was raining.. Desiree called from work right then and I had to answer this and that from her later on she said I had to continue doing work today.. sheeet and thats why I am at the office now but i said I'll do it after i come back from CNY open house..

anyway.. no way in the house i had to borrow my sister punya pants and her husbands polo shirt lol.. nasib baik my brother came home so i can change into my own jeans..

anway.. thats all of updates oh ya komentar bonus.. I suka sangat si boyfrien Warren.. si Joseph tu.. I nak sgt 3some dengan diaorang!

Weekend yg Lumayan?

YESSS!! hahahahah dlm usaha utk mencapai my before 30 resolution "100 boys under 20 before I am 30" Hussin telah berjaya ngap si Afiq kat bawah tue.. hahaha gambar gambar blue akan disiarkan sebentar lagi. Although I have to admit that I wont be posting any gambar blue yg lebeh lebeh.. tu semua ada kat my flickr so hang kalau nak tengok.. join flickr, and message I, nanti i add u la as contacts..

hehehehe.. well ceritanya .. i coba la nak tepon si afiq nie.. tapi 2 hari x dapat.. dia kata handset kat situ la kat sini la.. anyway.. sabtu tu, I gi angkut dia dari taman tun.. nie dah jam berapa time tu.. jam 10pm kot.. anyway.. lepas tu kiteorang gi buat kerja aku.. gi cari mamak yg besor2 and ada tayang game bola.. merata la gi.. last last.. lepas jalan jalan .. siap gi tengok eye kat titiwangsa lagi.. tempat tu ok la.. ada gaks tarikan nya .. tapi sayang time tu tgh hujan.. but is it the tens of millions it cost? definitely not. Heck we could do soooo much more.

anyway.. time tu dah gersang dah.. tangan kiri dah lama dah merayap and usap2 adik si afiq tue.. hehehe so motif tgh hujan gi Queens Park? heheh cari port le.. sampai je kat Tasek Permaisuri tu.. parking terusssssssssss loi lol.. best!! siap interview lagi.. anyway.. dia jenis kat x sensitive after cumming.. dunno why.. so weird. hehehehe..

anyway.. cerita nya lepas tu i lepak kat tasek kelana jaya.. boleh? lol and shortly after I was joined by wazi, lea and nas. i pon call si Jat suruh dtg.. because dia pon nak jumpa si Lea nie.. semangat tu kiteorang gi tengok cd Miss World, tengok Lea's crowning glory moment =)

anyway, to make this meleret leret story pendek.. esoknya, Arul call.. hehehe nak berbaik semula la nie.. dia minta amek.. aku kata jam 3pm.. dia pon setuju.. padahal 40 mint after 3pm baru i sampai kat ILP.. nak pendekkan cerita.. dia membuat balik drama lama .. aweks dia sampai kat ILP x bagitahu.. so in the end dia pinjam keta amek aweks dia.. kiteorang dah sampai kat umah wazi dah.. i nak tengok Lea menyiapkan diri, tempek makeup. tapi diaorang semua dak gi ke Anugerah Juara Lagu pon si arul nie x sampai2 lagi..

but that night kiteorang 3 org gi la umah nicholas kat klang tu untuk tengok Juara Lagu... dua ekor tu romen dlm toilet. Memang xleh bawa rumah org.. i drop kat zana kat umah dia,.. mahal siot .. flat kecil kat seksyen 20 tu RM500 boleh? cekik darah benor.. buruk plak tu flat nyer..

and i bawa arul balik umah untuk beromen MUAHAHAHHAHA lol at last dapat gaks qualiti seks time ngan arul.. hmm tapi becoz dia dah pancut ngan Zana tadi.. I pon merasa la long lasting power.. siot nak cramp rahang nie tau.. tapi okla..

GREAT WEEKEND

lol It was crazy!!

on Friday there was a christmas party at the Office, the food was delicious but there werent enough of it.. the atmosphere could have been improved.. the activities were just so and so but afterwards the drinking memang best giler!! everybody ws soo drunk lol.. ada sorang tu yg gay tu ... memang amek kesempatan habis.. semua jantan dia cium.. siam cemolot ngan yg dah mabok habis dah.. lol sembang2. and then call Cols, boyfriend dia datang dari Bangkok, so Krit so i pon excited la nak jumpa .. taht night.. I yg dah mabok abiss tu gi la ke Frangipani lol x belanja pon lol dah mabok buat apa minum lagi lol.. so lepak2.. dancing sikit sikit.. tapi x enjoy sgt becoz penat sgt time tu and sakit belakang.. the day before i finished work at 2 am what and the day before at 4am ..

so frangi that night was swell.. went back around 3:40 or 4am i think tapi singgah dulu kat Tasek Kelana Jaya.. abg W ada kat situ. hahaha mula2 ingatkan bukan nasib baik dia tegur.. toilet tu x tutup mlm tu.. abg W plak kata ada org kat situ... ada 2 tgh projek kot.. so kite apa lagi.. skodeng. la.. hampeh dua2 dah perasan.. jambu giler si baju coklet .. nama dia Kamal.. raba2 sikit pastu dia kata dia nak masuk main ngan yg tinggi tu.. hampeh.. anyway to cut the story short.. i lepak plak ngan si budah college nie.. naik skootz.. nama dia fiq i think .. sembang2 punya ka situ.. dah manja2.. tangan pon merayap la.. dia suruh hisap kat situ gaks.. abg W tengok dari branch belah sana lol.. memang exhibitions betoi... tapi mlm tu hujan renyai2 and xde org so i selamba je la.. tapi lepas seketika .. i ajak gi toilet.. kat toilet tu oral je.. tapi lepas dia pancut i suruh dia buat kita plak.. dia hisap.. best giler pancut dlm mulut org.. lain rasanye.. terhenjut2 lol =)

then balik tido tapi si Cols kacau.. dia ajak gi mana ntah.. oh the curve kot or somewhere. so kita pon gigih la gi umah dia.. lepak seketika .. gi amik si mer and then baru go the curve.. lepaks lama2.. including kat borders and last gi makan dinenr with trev + jenssen.. sayang warren couldnt make it.. it was lovely the dinner tapi mahal nak mampos but worth it..

lepas tu baru gi LA Queen.. i tak hengat dunia mlm tu.. walapon perot buncit sbb kenyang.. dance on podium nonstop beb dari 12:30 to closing at 4am ... lol best nyer.. tapi i tido only 2 hours beb coz in the fucking morning got appointment with SEr Yee.. gi seminar business baru.. so tu 8 hours.. x jadi hantar si krit ke airport.. lepaks kat klang sampai 1:30 morning..

man this week memang sleep deprived.. but worth it